I am currently reading a book called Hope Being Gone, by Cherie Hill. I got it on my Kindle for free. It keeps coming back to the same question--What do you do when you have run out of hope? She believes that God places us in positions of hopelessness to build our faith. She also says that we don't NEED a lot of faith. That it is not the amount of faith that we have, but the object of our faith. It has made me question myself. Who or what is my faith in?
I know at times my faith has been in my works, my prayers, my faith...does that make sense? My faith is in my faith??? That's not what God wants. He wants me to put my faith in Him. That I can't produce faith on my own. That if I pray harder, and He'll act sooner. He has to come through for me. And He will, in His own time and on His own terms. And I can't pray harder and give more and have Him come through faster. He will come through for me, though. He IS my only hope. He is directing my path, and He will come through.
So my question has to be, what do You want from me? Show me, and I will do it. I will wait until You tell me.